Pouring my thoughts out: A necessity

I am quoting a phrase from Sir Arthur Conan's all-time hit fictional character, "Sherlock Holmes". Sherlock relates to Dr Watson (while Dr Watson tries explaining to Sherlock how the Solar system works) that "The brain is just like an attic." You better put the things in you find useful otherwise if you try to fill it with everything possible then you'll end up getting stuck in the attic: finding the thing that was important to you. 

Assalamu Alaykum I'm Muhammad Ammad with an article on pouring my thoughts in. 

Being an A-levels students, and coping up with good grades throughout is not an easy task. Especially when you are working as a full-time faculty member at an academy side-by-side working with Casio Pakistan for educational, and marketing purposes. 

I usually take pride in telling myself "Hey! I can multitask. Hurrayyy!!". 

It is, in fact, a moment of pride because not everyone I know is managing a good/average A-levels GPA along with side-jobs, earning good, and supporting themselves financially. 

Jack Ma - The founder of Ali Baba group says, "As long as my son is learning skills, I'm okay with him getting B's, and C's". 

As a matter of fact, at this stage, I am learning life. Fortunately, much of the opportunities knocked at my door. I warmly welcomed most of them. 

My whole day activity requires me to Multitask, and in fact, it has changed me for good. I can finally write in my CV that "I can multitask with an ability to improvise" -something that most employers look for in an ideal candidate. 

Multi-tasking is good. It's addictive. But it has cost me a bit. 

With time, my ability to improvise decreased (it never stopped!). 

I remember how effective I was in varying tasks, and still get the quality out of it. 

With time, it eroded.

Working tirelessly all day long, with no breaks in between except for praying, drained my energy levels a lot! Today, I feel like delivering quantity rather than quality.

Delivering quantity does not mean that I did not do it right. It is just the inner satisfaction - that I can relate to - that I lost. 

I believe Sherlock was rather right about the attic's analogy. I have filled my mind to such an extent that the walls are being pushed from inside. It is as if the attic would simply collapse. I wonder this, or what caused me severe headaches. My paradigm changed, and I started sleeping not because 'nights were made to sleep' but because 'i had no energy to carry on'. 

I slept with a package, a weight on me that I would pick up every morning and continue the same hard-working energy-draining day. 

But not anymore. Today I am sleeping with no package at all. Because tomorrow, i am restarting this phase. 

I have cleaned my attic through this blog post - it helped me pour what I was holding up to the brim for quite a while now - where it will remain for a while. For this time, it had worked like a charm as my headache disappeared. The attic is again empty, ready to welcome new furniture. 

Today, I am setting a new goal for my self. A goal that I need to achieve by the end of this month - To gain equilibrium in all my tasks. It is entirely to get the inner satisfaction. Consider it as a *first* 'picture frame' in the attic.  

I have tens of upcoming tasks to cater. I know I was going to achieve it anyway, but let's see if I can do it in the light of the 'goal' i just set for my self (WishMeLuck!), maximising the level of satisfaction. 

I am Alhamdulillah happy with all the work I am doing. I seek happiness in what I do. If I don't find one, I create one by putting up optimistic goals, and constructive criticism of my self. This blog is a medium (MY MEDIUM 😄) where I can express my feelings, and through this blog, I gain energy, motivation, and the willpower as I'll be held accountable for it. 

*The quotations used do not have the exact words that were uttered but imply the same idea. 

*You arewholeheartedlyy allowed to post the correct quotations, if possible.